Trusty

Is quite moody today...
because of some sentences from someone...
why untill now she stil dont believe me??..
whatever i said she also dont believe...
she asked but after i answer u said i lie...
then why stil want to ask??...
i cant work on sunday is because my leg is really hurt...
is really pain...
this is the fact and also is the fact that i dont want...
why u still keep saying that is i lazy, dont want go work...
why still keep saying im pretending..
im not a faker....
and actually i do use dettlo to washed my hurt...
but why u said im telling lie...
is it just because the bottle that i used had dry up??...
temperature outside was so high, bottle is made of plastic and small...
somemore had pass 1 hour...ofcourse dry la...
moreover the tissues that i used were still inside the dusbin...
how can u said i lie??...
im not lying...
what u want me to do only u will believe whatever i said??...
do u know how hurt is my heart??...
im so dissapointed with u and feel upset about this...
what can i do??.................

2009

year 2009...many things happened in this year althought its not ended yet.....
lifestyle had changed....
from college student become a self study student plus part time waitress...
from having two groups of college friends become left none...
from status:in relationship for years become single...

begining of 2009 was good...new year, chinese new year, my birthday, genting trip with college frens....
enjoyed these days and left a good memories for 2009...

mid of 2009...final exam, results, career...
like all the trouble things happened in one time....
final exam was terrible...
no matter how hard i study also couldn't do well in the exam...know this when i get the papers...
that is it, no doubt, results was sucks...
even i myself cant believed this fact..
cried over and over just because of this...
dare not to tell my parent but still have to at the end....
entered job in July...all the while working at the same place but knowing different things...
besides knowledges but also politics in restaurant...
wonder is there any place that everyone can live without politics...
problems all come at once...
family, friends, relationship, studies...
4 main fields in life...had problems with them all at once and couldn't solve...
almost cried every night every moment when i think about it...
but i believed time will help...
so now, time had help me solved part of the problems in each field but not all...
is it problems will come non stop and this is so call life??...
and quite hard to make decision nowadays...
even small things also cant make decision on my own...
like where to have lunch in working day...this is the most headache question when i got work...

end of 2009...
wonder how will it be...
can i free from problems???....
can i overcome all the obstacles in my life???...
can i live happily without tears???...
i hope...it will be good and will feel glad when i turn back...
because i learned lessons and get knowledges and teories that cant be found in books in 2009...